Cold blooded...

You want to live but you cannot live
You want to die but you cannot die
Lying half dead and half alive, what a pity it was like
The whole body is at the mercy of it, surrendered unconsciously.

Motionless, sensitive to everything, irritated, hovering unaware
The vulnerability is what i'm passing through
Like divided between hell and another hell, side by side
Heavily drugged and dozing off squarely, surrendered completely.

The lining along the membrane is working overtime
Producing slices of all sizes keeping me engaged and busy
Leaving my sleep aside and forgetting that it is not time to fight
The whole night was spent with it, surrendered surreptitiously.

The blowing sequences and the crazy sneezes
The dangerous precision and accurate executions
And when the heart stops for a fraction of a second
The brain goes blank, silence takes over, surrenders silently.

Left to deal with myself with no one for my rescue
With nothing else in sight and embracing it by virtue
Living with it as part of my existence and life
Cold blooded sinus, is what i have to live with from now on too.




P.S: This poem is all about sinusitis. Sinus takes its ugly form when the mucus membrane, a lining along the inside walls of the nose gets activated. The triggering factors could be anything, example dust, etc. In order to stop the membrane from producing, an antibiotic is given as a reducing agent in the first phase. Then a sinusitis related pill with a little sleeping agent inside it is given so that one gets the attack reduced in ones sleep.

P.S: The above picture was clicked in Karwar, North Karnataka, India. The guy gracing my picture is Nimmanagoti Srinivas, a nuclear scientist.